Narcoleptic Recluse - this runaway train of thought leaves mangled
bodies
on the tracks screeching horror of revelation woke up screaming once
again
the chemical warfare we wage in other people's heads with tear gas we
burn
the eyes and lungs sense confusion masked figures in the mist shouting
in a
language i do not understand i lied face down in the trenches
pretending to
be dead all night beloved leader with a twisted smile of little white
tombstones this is year zero you clear cut my forests you polluted all
my
rivers you consumed everything left me barren as the moon you burned
all my
bridges and killed so many dreams releasing their ghosts to haunt the
ruins
of who I once was crumbling statues of utopia this is the place where
our
nightmares grow these are the things that nobody knows you wake up in
your
bed and sense you're not alone you brought one back with you and now
it's
home.
North Korea - if i stay just right out of their sight they can't see
me
writing these lines: thoughtcrime does not entail death thoughtcrime is
death footsteps creaking furtive doorknobs turning try to look busy now
it's
your face that betrays you and the things you say in your sleep it's
always
the same game of cat and mouse i'm tired of covering up my footprints
tired
of destroying all evidence i never thought there was anything that they
could do to ever make me say the words "i do not love you anymore" i'm
left
here all alone in the pale blue light and the drone of machines you
know
what it's like to be here alone you were once like me what i saw
through the
window broke the glass between us you picked up a shard and cut my
fucking
heart out.
The Mariana Trench - i made my bed now i lie in it alone i had my
way now
i get to watch it fade bury us here in this underwater grave try to
shut
these eyes i still see it swirling down the drain i'm left shivering
with
what remains an eerie silence and a feeling that this room is floating
out
at sea SOS (save our ship) the walls are groaning we're going down
pipes are
bursting inside my head i watched the water rise above your eyes now
it's
leaking out of mine i still taste your salty tears on my lips this time
the
captain will go down with his ship save yourselves women and children
first
save yourself a searchlight pierces the pitch black silence
illuminating our
ghostly wreckage which will rest under unfathomable depths forever.
Dysphasia - live on the fence stay in the grey never commit to
anything
that sees the light of day live like a ghost float through the day like
sharks in underwater cathedrals.
Late Bloomer - sit here and stare at the blank page in front of me
opaque
snow covered window sometimes ghostly words melt through the frost
faint
whispers from the other side the storm blows the shutters open and i
shudder
to think how i have boarded myself up and sealed myself off quarantined
like
a virus economies crippled by sanctions destabilized by the CIA i'm
still
waiting for the dream where i can see myself i'm still waiting for the
day
someone breaks the embargo i shudder to think what could have been had
i not
been under constant threat of invasion and undermined every single step
of
the way.
Growing Pains - listen up dear i can't stop thinking but my mouth
stays
shut a concrete damn turning my mind into a reservoir that is bursting
at
the seams quite impressive engineering actually now that those two leaky
holes have been patched up so efficiently your eyes drill holes into
mine
your mouth blows up dynamiting my insides sprinkle me with angel dust
right
before you smash my face through the glass you silenced all the
machines so
effortlessly with your finger on my lips when my heart is pounding you
kiss
me with novocaine and smile sardonically sometimes i think i don't know
you
at all when you lull me to sleep dusty morning sunbeams steal me from
my
dreams but i can't tell the difference anymore.
Vampire Invitation - i can freeze time and i can change things you sleep for
aeons when you blink your eyes oblivious to my eternal gaze tracing the
outlines of that perfect face in here we'll never grow old the two of us
together frozen in amber wake up in high school wake up in the womb wake up
safe with you it was all just a bad dream i had lost you we grew apart and
became strangers eventually we grew up and forgot about each other i will
find a black suitcase glowing with money and take it home being carefull not
to look too suspicious.
Wasp Factory
poison sheets that toss you around like waves fever's glowing red digital
display he won't make it through the night he won't live to see the sunrise
this is where i hatch my plans watch them descend from the ceiling on silk
threads watch them peek through cracked doors they don't answer when you ask
them who they are they just spread across the walls like a black mold
consuming everything creeping black roots of despair have burrowed into my
chest nourishing this dark forest that grew out of the sink while we tossed
and turned feverishly underneath the dirty dishes it grew to overtake us
all.
Heroin Chic - what the fuck is happening to me? i've been in denial
for so
long everything is fading everything is gone i hope that it's worth it
because i'm at the point of no return and i'm starting to have my
doubts
that they'll find a cure for this virus that replicates inside your
words
inside your deeds inside your thoughts inside your dreams you learn to
live
with it you learn to cope with it you learn to hide all the symptoms it
becomes your temptress it becomes your mistress it becomes your best
friend
in the world close your eyes watch it unfold watch in horror these
silent
movie memories in our sanctum there was no time only the faint glow
from the
nightstand that lit your face now the minutes pass by so empty god
knows
where you are god knows what you're doing you drove a stake through my
heart
while i slept inside you.
Entropy - you'll find it slumped over in the bedroom the shed skin of
the
boy that had to grow out of his childhood sadness because of her the
big
bang theory of the crimes against humanity committed in bedrooms evil
energy
flowing through telephone lines a star burns out and collapses
introverted a
big black hold consuming itself self consuming not even it's own light
can
escape the pull wet faces and bleeding hearts mean so much to me now
seeds
planted in that fallow soil now starting to grow inside abloom with
newborn
cries baptized in bright blue eyes risen from the highway twisted metal
pyre
the wreckage rusts away and the rooms are empty now where the stage was
set
to enact our tragedy dams broke to irrigate these withered souls and
the
image fades away the big bang theory of his heart.
Straitjacket - i can hear her calling hunting and haunting me she's
been
after me for years i can still feel those eyes buzzing in my head
sometimes
i wake up at night and see her in my bed she's come to take me away
stare
into those eyes of black robotic cruelty see them see you as prey you
have
such a beautiful poisonous body and it's killed so much of me your
silhouette at the top of the stairs seen through the eyes of a child
was
horror that still echoes in my head and i fell so far from that light
falling down the stairs i know it still lurks up there somewhere those
wings
so sinister this fear so paralyzing they're going to get me for what i
did
on that schoolyard.
Impostor - you can't trust alarms to wake you up from sleep and i
can't
trust myself because we are what we think keep it a secret because if
it
ever got out i'd simply disappear that's why they entrusted it to me i
forget everything they're not scared my dreams are to vague to be a
threat
and whatever is in my head they devour my intentions forced to forage
for
new hopes offered up to satiate them you should see what they do to you
distorted faces in the backseat don't look so friendly ghostly impostor
with
a crooked smile of false benevolence insincere eyes we've fallen asleep
again at the wheel and that's why i keep my mouth shut.
Chemotherapy - walking through his house with a sinking feeling in
his gut
hallways are dark but instincts guide the way the lights are off so he
doesn't have to see where he lives staggering to his room wounded by
shrapnel thoughts about her collapsing on the bed cruel doctors go to
work
on his head emotional chemotherapy it's the blurry visions of you
through
the haze that keep me hanging on don't worry my little angel soon this
nightmare will be over lingering in these hallways like a ghost i can't
escape condemned to wander in this desolate wasteland somewhere in the
synapse the nerve impulses from your hand become an oasis that i can
drink
from and stay alive you worry too much my little angel.
